lostdreams80's Blog

the more i wait and wait for a phone call the sadder it makes me, once again he has ran off the mx and dropped off the face of the earth. Why do i let him you say? well i gave up, he always has some friend who needs a ride or a car to take or something and i give up. How can a man who says he loves you so much turn around and disappear for days and not even pick up the phone...what for right, he is just going to lie anyway....What breaks my heart is when i open my eyes and realize it was all lies and he has another family or something, i will  never believe in love again...maybe thats why i hold on, the day i have proof i will hate the world. my birthday is in days and i do not want to celebrate, i wasted my 20's waiting on a man hand and foot who could give a shit about me, full of tears, and  pain, bruises, empty lonely days. what will i spend another 10 yrs doing the same? I want something better, happiness, love, and this feeling of loneliness to go away.

God grant me the serenity to accept the things i can not change, Courage to change the things i can, and the Wisdom to know the difference.